Size Doesn't Matter

Hey all,

Its my second day of having the new weight gain powder milkshakes, and I can already feel a difference. My tummy has grown bigger, and my thighs have just caught up, however my ass has still to make more pudge on itself. This may just be because I am getting more round generally so my backside doesn't seem so big. The bust has definately started to develop stretch marks again, and all the stretch marks from my hips and thighs has come back :) 

I have been thinking and it is possible to maybe get beyond a UK size 10 before Christmas. With my tummy at its max size after eating a lot at the moment, my size 10 jeans fit without the use of a belt. If in the next week or maybe days I can get into size 10 comfortably, then the next size up should be relatively straight forward. 

The idea of being a UK size 12 doesn’t scare me as much as it did. Whatever size I am at Christmas I will be happy with. Fuck it, if I'm a 12 at Christmas hell yeh! It would mean if I was, I'd be bigger than my mum! Which also doesn’t scare me. Thinking about it, I think I'll  have to buy size 12 jeans before I go home for Christmas just in case I outgrow my size 10s lol 

Back in the first year of my weight gain journey, size 12 scared me. But I think I can look good at any size, as long as I have my curves. Size doesn't matter, all it is, is more material being wrapped around your body, and the sizes in shops change on a yearly basis anyway, and sizes change in each shop too. I feel women should be curvy and have pudge or meat on them as that's what's attractive about us to men. 

I am finding that body mass compared to the next women or even male isn't important. What is important is as long as you are healthy, eat right, exercise, and look after yourself and you don't have any health problems, you can be any size you want. 

I am wanting to not stay thin because of my petite height and small frame, and I look young too, so being bigger helps me to not appear and feel small. Lets see what the next few days brings, but I feel within the next week, my UK size 8 jeans won't fit anymore! Bring on the pudginess. 

Raquel

Amaaaazing Dinner!

Hey all,

I have just finished my dinner of pasta and tomato sauce- OMG it was amaaaazing!!! Mushrooms, onions, and peppers for crunchiness, yum. Making my own tomato sauce for pasta was the best thing I have done since my change in attitude to food with trying out new meals. Ready made ones in the tins from the shops are nice if you spend money on them, but the fact that’s its homemade and it tastes so much healthier.

I have finished my black tub of gain weight powder, and my new tub is on its way, picking it up tomorrow. This new tub is 1 thousand calories per milkshake instead of the few hundred I was getting with the previous. This should be interesting to see how I take to this new powder. Its technically chocolate milkshake gain powder, so I wont have to use my Nestle chocolate powder.

The amount of milk I drink these days is insane. I’ve only just started to realise how much I drink, I go through 4 pints (2 litres) of milk in like 1 and half to 2 days! I don’t want to think how much I spending on milk per week then! Lol

I haven’t been on the scales, but I wore my UK size 8 jeans today, and boy were they tight. They weren’t hard to get into as such, but just skin tight. The only thing that’s really changing is my tummy size, and the amount of pudge I have on the bottom sides of my back. Yes my thighs are bigger as they are beginning to touch again, but I am not at the jiggly stage yet.

I have become addicted to Christina aguilera’s music video for her single “your body”. Yes the music is good, but she looks so curvaceous in it, and it makes me think that at my highest weight last time, I was getting to that roundness sexual stage, so I’m using her for inspiration at the moment.

I don’t have a goal, but god I love food at the moment. I have been researching and I will be soon posting a few lists to do with food and related topics. Stay tuned.

Raquel

Getting Back On The Pudge Train

Monday 22^st Oct 2012

Hey all,

I started a weight gain journey back in August of 2011, wanting to gain weight for health reasons as well as not wanting to be a UK size 6-8 anymore. Despite having a natural curvy figure, with my body being of a lower weight, it wasn’t obvious. After deciding to gain weight, by using milkshakes with weight gain powder, and eating over 2500 calories a day, and other such techniques, I slowly over the months gained. I went from my lowest of just over 7 stone to y highest of 8 stone 4 pounds. Within a year I had gained a 14 pounds, and I would have gained it quicker and with more ease if it weren’t for my high metabolism. Throughout the journey I blogged about what I was eating, and how my body changed, with pictures to show, on the site “Curvage”.

Coming into the summer of 2012, I had had enough of trying so hard to keep my weight at the highest stage, and it was getting tiresome of eating so much throughout a day, and I wasn’t enjoying it. So I decided to stop trying and just eat the healthy three meals a day, and whatever happened to my body, happened.

I am very surprised that nearly two months later, after I announced my big decision to not continue gaining weight or blogging on Curvage site, I wanted to start gaining again. Throughout the two months I had admittedly stopped eating five plus meals a day, and consuming the weight gain powder, meaning that I dropped down to a small UK size 8, losing my ass, bust and most of all tummy, which I had gained massively with the curves at the highest weights.

Recently I had felt not board as such with myself, but felt like I have lost something, the excitement about eating, food, and my body. It was buy chance that I wanted to do some experimental cooking, trying meals out which I had never made before, and that set me off. I was back into good tasting food, and still loving the Chinese and chocolate. Hehe.

I started to have my milkshakes again and just eat for enjoying what I was eating. Without realising over a three or so day period, that made my tummy expand and my size 8 jeans were getting tight again, and boy did I miss that ass! [I got it back :)].

After acquiring some curves back, I began to feel that excitement creeping back, and I suddenly wanted to get bigger again. I had began to watch “Diner, Drive-ins and Dives” on the food channel, which got me hungry to eat every night, and later watching a 2009 film “Julie and Julia” which is about cooking, I got all static and happy within myself to be where I missed.

Food = big tummy = weight gain = happiness.

There wasn’t a conscious decision to start gaining weight again, it was purely for the fact of liking what I am eating. Making tomato sauce for pasta with mushrooms and peppers I got addicted too, and after watching that film, I wanted to start to learn a bit more how to cook. Agreeably the cooking of boiled eggs for eggs and soldiers dinner the other night, didn’t go quite so to plan resulting in undercooked or overcooked eggs, but I felt that I was, despite the slight failure of that meal, getting back into being a foodie. I tried proper vegetable soup today also which I liked, and my portions of foods have grown.

I’ve ordered more gaining weight powder, as I had nearly finished a massive 2.5kg black tub of it (that I started back in August 2011), and I am enjoying food again which is nice.

I thought I would start blogging again, not just about my weight gain or what I eat, but about other things related. I thought if I wasn’t going to talk about my personal experiences with gain weight or body issues etc, then I could talk about related topics. So here I am, over a year on from when I started to blog, and two months of not doing it, it feels good to be writing again.

I thought I’d come on here and say that once you go bigger, pudgier or whatever you want to call it, you never go back- from experience!

I hope you all will enjoy what I will be saying in the weeks to come. 

 :) Raquel